Autumn Weekend
I had Saturday off this week, and after how I have been feeling over the last week it is so nice to have a break from work and stress. The last few days I have been feeling really down, hopeless and angry, all of these are signs of depression, as mine is made worse in the winter months. I am so lucky that I have such an incredible support system around me, from colleagues, friends, family and of course Jed.
Jed is one of my heroes this week. He has been patient and kind, he has loved me through every negative moment and held me while I've cried. He even sent me the most gorgeous bouquet of flowers to my work, which made me feel so special and so loved. He really is the kindest soul I have ever met. When I mentioned what he had done for me to my mum, she said "he really loves you, anyone can see that" which is so true. I know how lucky I am to have him in my life and I am trying so hard not to take him for granted.
So on my Saturday off, I decided to get up early and head over to my mums house. Jed is away this weekend at a stag do he organised (he is best man!), so I had some time to me. I got to my mums house, and helped her tidy and make lunch for my sister and her friend. Then we walked the dogs around a nearby river, and the whole time we chatted away. One thing I have noticed since moving out is how much more I appreciate seeing my family. I took it for granted, being able to laugh with my siblings or ask my parents advice whenever I needed it, so now when I am with them I make so much more of an effort to just be in the moment. I have always been close with my mum, so I had no problem telling her how I have been feeling, and everything that has happened this week. She listened, and gave advice, and then made sure I had enough "Mum hugs". She also made my favourite pudding because she knew I was coming over. I ate too much and made myself feel abit sick, I may have grown up in some ways but I am still a child when it comes to pudding!
Here is me and my sister on our walk today, my mum took this photo and I love it a lot! Two of our three dogs make an appearance too, Boris on the left, Delilah on the right.
So now I am back in my flat, once I got in I folded and put clothes away, hung out the next load of washing from the machine and then put on another wash. I also cleaned the bathrooms and tidied the living room. The reason I am writing about this is because in the last week I have struggled to encourage myself to eat breakfast and get in the shower, so to have such a productive evening is a huge achievement for me. I think I should get some sleep as I have work tomorrow and need to do some food shopping before hand. So I am going to tuck myself in with a hot drink and a book and hopefully settle down for some sleep.
Jed is one of my heroes this week. He has been patient and kind, he has loved me through every negative moment and held me while I've cried. He even sent me the most gorgeous bouquet of flowers to my work, which made me feel so special and so loved. He really is the kindest soul I have ever met. When I mentioned what he had done for me to my mum, she said "he really loves you, anyone can see that" which is so true. I know how lucky I am to have him in my life and I am trying so hard not to take him for granted.
So on my Saturday off, I decided to get up early and head over to my mums house. Jed is away this weekend at a stag do he organised (he is best man!), so I had some time to me. I got to my mums house, and helped her tidy and make lunch for my sister and her friend. Then we walked the dogs around a nearby river, and the whole time we chatted away. One thing I have noticed since moving out is how much more I appreciate seeing my family. I took it for granted, being able to laugh with my siblings or ask my parents advice whenever I needed it, so now when I am with them I make so much more of an effort to just be in the moment. I have always been close with my mum, so I had no problem telling her how I have been feeling, and everything that has happened this week. She listened, and gave advice, and then made sure I had enough "Mum hugs". She also made my favourite pudding because she knew I was coming over. I ate too much and made myself feel abit sick, I may have grown up in some ways but I am still a child when it comes to pudding!
Here is me and my sister on our walk today, my mum took this photo and I love it a lot! Two of our three dogs make an appearance too, Boris on the left, Delilah on the right.
So now I am back in my flat, once I got in I folded and put clothes away, hung out the next load of washing from the machine and then put on another wash. I also cleaned the bathrooms and tidied the living room. The reason I am writing about this is because in the last week I have struggled to encourage myself to eat breakfast and get in the shower, so to have such a productive evening is a huge achievement for me. I think I should get some sleep as I have work tomorrow and need to do some food shopping before hand. So I am going to tuck myself in with a hot drink and a book and hopefully settle down for some sleep.
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